hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. (or an ely denied her chipolata roll)
i am fuming now. the day started bad. got fucked by my mum, seriously, i don't understand why anyone would consciously choose to fuck up someone's day and ruin it at 630 in the fucking morning. and you wonder why i hate it at home?!
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the shift was ok. really good chit chat. really good company. (thank you ely darling.) i even got to go out to pick up some stuff from another store..see a cute guy at LT, and make some deliveries to ngee ann city. it was a nice fun shift..while working..i actually forgot how tired i am..and pet came by..which was a nice surprise.
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and then came 2.05pm.. i should have punched out at 2 on the dot..then maybe i wouldn't be fuming. i was supposed to make an espresso frappuccino.
"bar, i need a shot." (i'm supposed to say this..and wait for whoever's at the bar to pull a shot and hand it over)
i wait
"why don't you just help yourself to the shot?" (in a very hostile tone)
(fuck you.)
i have done nothing to deserve hostility like that. plus, the last time i stepped in while you were working at the bar, i got the filthiest look from you. really, if you step on my tail, don't blame me when i bite. if you're not happy with the way i work, tell it to my face. you can always tell me nicely that you can handle it at the bar when i offer my help, i'll find something else to do. there's always plenty to do around the store. you can at least acknowledge the fact i just said something i thought you should know (like serve chips with the salmon and cheese bagel), if i really wanted to talk to a wall, there's plenty around the store.
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and of course, bad things come in threes.
i run across the fucking road for the bus, throw away a dripping drink (i was pretty sure the bus driver wouldn't appreciate ants on the bus) before waving the bus down, the fucking driver stops far far far from the bus stop..and mutters in hokkien as i board the bus, talking about how he doesn't understand why i didn't just board the bus when it first drove into the bus stop. he neglected the fact i was right across the road. and then he had the cheek to glare at me in the bus. i really really wanted to show him my lovely long slender middle finger. but i thought, no use being so rude in public. i am, after all, a little lady. but fuck you mr bus driver, for deciding to join in the let's-give-selina-a-bad-day party.
ahh...i hate this.....gonna sleep it off..
this is about when i really wish i can just run to you, and you'll make everything alright again. but i also realise you probably don't care. this calls for a biiiiiiiiig sigh.
*cheesy song alert!!*
~ too lost in you ~ sugababes ~ you look into my eyes i go out of my mind i can't see anything cos this love's got me blind i can't help myself i can't break the spell i can't even try.
i'm in over my head you got under my skin i've got no strength at all in the state that i'm in and my knees are weak and my mouth can't speak fell too far this time.
baby, i'm too lost in you caught in you lost in everything about you so deep, i can't sleep i can't think i just think about the things that you do i'm too lost in you.
well you whispered to me and i shiver inside you undo me and move me in ways undefined and you're all i see and you're all i need help me baby
cos i'm slipping away like the sand to the tide falling into your arms falling into your eyes if you get too near i might disappear i might lose my mnd
